January 5, 2023 - Thursday


Well, I counted last night. Ollie came into my room SEVEN times between 2:30 and 4. I'm not sure if it's good or not that I fell back asleep between each one of her visits to my room. 😅 It's sad to know that she was awake that entire time though. She's been telling me she's scared in her room and I just don't know what to do about that. She has a night light, and it is plenty bright in there, and we keep her door opened a crack, but nobody can keep her company while she sleeps; she just has to get herself used to being alone in her room. Like she has been for her ENTIRE LIFE. I don't know. I'm not without compassion. I used to be scared of the dark and I can remember the feeling of my heart racing, hiding under the covers, wishing I was asleep so I didn't feel so scared. It's a bad feeling. But, on the other hand, there is nothing to be done about it. The same way she convinced herself that the dark is scary (because nobody ever suggested to her that it was) is the way she'll have to convince herself that it's not anymore. 

Of course, my tired-ness and anger colored my whole day...again. I wasn't as grumpy as yesterday, but I just don't know what to do about Ollie. Her behavior and her sleep have both been terrible and I'm so sick of it. It was pizza and a movie night and we watched Matilda the Musical. So cute! But I'm a huge Roald Dahl fan, so I tend to like most of his books brought to screen. It was longer than I expected and they took some liberties with characters and story line a bit, but still a big hit with the kids and a very fun movie to watch. 

I have a Ms. Hannigan/Annie photo series in mind. I realize it's a little niche, now that I've become aware that not everyone has watched Annie 200 times, but I HAVE. And I see little things that make me think of it all the time...especially the fact that I'm constantly surround by little girls. :) I've sketched out one of the ideas and have another one semi-fleshed out in my mind, but I have to make costumes for the girls and that could take me a little while. 



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