January 23, 2023 - Monday


I talked to Ben about some of the things I blogged about yesterday and he offered some good perspective for me. Really, it was just helpful to be reminded that this DOES happen to him too and that I'm not alone in my feelings. I'm not a horrible person or a crazy person. I also talked to Rachel and Kaitlyn at HC tonight and through talking to them about my feeling discouraged about the move and my frustration/disappointment with God, I started to realize that all of these things are likely connected. They did start right around the same time - the discontentment with life and the falling apart of my plans. I have paused my Bible reading and have barely been praying, I am confused by/angry with God, and I am struggling in my personal life. Listing it out in that way makes it pretty clear to me that they're connected AND that God is the fix...when I'm ready to come to terms with not having answers and being ok with being confused. 

Ollie slept through the night last night! She does get up at 6am pretty much on the dot every single day, which is easier to deal with some days than others. Having nearly 8 hours of sleep helps, but I'm not always ready to be asleep by 10! That is my only free time. I rarely want to go to sleep that early. 

Jonas was home sick today, but I think he'll be ready to go back to school tomorrow and so should Ollie. Looking forward to having a couple of hours kid-free! 





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