January 4, 2023 - Wednesday


Crazy how the weather went from the first photo to the second in a matter of hours. And my mood followed suit. I was SO sad this morning. I was pissed about my planner still being lost and super dreading the Oasis staff meeting today. I just sat on the couch like a crotchety old lady for hours, staring glumly around me, daring anyone to challenge my absolute right to act like an ass. It didn't help that Ollie woke me up again in the middle of the night. GAH! Will it ever end??? Yes, it will. But not today and I really want it to end today. 

Despite my negative feelings about it, the staff meeting was good. I needed it to remind me that I like this job. I enjoy it and the people I work with/serve. It's fun for me and makes me feel good. So. The meeting was good. Ollie came with me and played completely silently on the floor next to me for an hour and a half. I swear, she was being an absolute DEMON this morning. Screaming at me, kicking at me, refusing to do all of the things she was supposed to do. That didn't help with my stress, but she was an angel at the meeting and has been decent since. We have a volunteer training coming up that makes me a little nervous, but it's all good. It's still a few weeks away. Back to CT on Sunday! 

Right after I got home, I had to jump on my staff meeting for BrandSwan. I was also not looking forward to that, but it was good too. I think I might just be getting a little too busy. I need to make sure I'm scheduling in rest/rejuvenation time for myself. 

Ollie had another freak out this evening before bed. Again, kicking, screaming, stamping her feet, spitting, hurling the meanest insults she knows (which are not mean at all and are really very funny--I'm a mean little girl, btw). This went on for almost an hour and Ben finally witnessed it. He was like what. the. f. 😅 Yeah, welcome to my hell!!! I have been able to stay calm and wait it out, but I really just want to lock her in a room and come back when she chills out. I do not have time for this kind of crap. BUT. I'm a mom, so...I just have to deal. What was it about??? Hmmm...Oh yeah. Ruby was sitting on our bed too while we were watching an episode of Bluey before bed. That's it. That's what started 45 minutes of screaming until she's hoarse and attacking the people she loves most in the world. Good times. 

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