January 29, 2023 - Sunday


I worked at CT this morning. We got out of the house ok and everything was set up about 10 minutes early. I think we'll be able to get there a little later next week, since everyone helps me get stuff set up...especially Ben. He's so helpful during setup now. He does the printers and tablets now, without me having to ask or instruct. It's so nice! 

Anne worked with me today and I definitely struggled a lot having her there. I got offended every time someone addressed her about an issue instead of me and I was in my head for a lot of the time, worrying about it. I know it's a pride issue and I know I need to be in prayer about it. Anne is an expert on Oasis and is extremely competent and helpful. Having her there is good for the program and that is the most important thing! Having her there might not be great for me though (honestly might not be great for her and her family either). At least until I can figure out how to humble my pride and put myself second. BUT HOW??? I spent most of the afternoon silently obsessing about this issue. I need help. 

Other than obsessively worrying that Anne is going to usurp me (like I sometimes want her to) and that everyone likes her more than me (understandably), I didn't do much. 11 loads of laundry washed, folded, and put away...which took many hours. I read a tiny bit, listened to a teaching, and made dinner. I want to get away from responsibilities for a few days. Like, take a few days off of everything and just not do any work or any worrying. My brain is tired. 



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