June 14, 2026 - Sunday


Ben freaked out on us again today and I am already nearing the end of my rope. It may be time for an ultimatum soon. I just want to run away, but I know I have to face the issue head on. I also know that he is grieving and really, really struggling with his pain, so I should try to be more patient. I'm not feeling very patient at the moment, though. I want him to see a counselor and actually work through some of his grief and pain, rather than just shoving it down like he has always done. Maybe I'll try to bring it up sometime soon.

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